Had High Expectations...Really I did

What is that I hear....I believe it is violin music. Yes this could turn into a pity party for myself, so reader beware. Corey and I are having our 10 year anniversary on the 12th of this month, plus in August I am turning the big 30. So I guess I could chalk all this up to a mid life crisis. I would have assumed that after ten years of all this hard work we would be further along with our lives. But as I sit back and look at our tiny tiny house (trust me it is small) and our four kids sometimes I feel like we are trapped here. Corey is almost done with his MBA and with the economy being so crappy who knows how long it will be before he gets that much deserved raise that will also raise us out of this house. Most of the young couples in our ward have beautiful houses and then I get to come home to my "classic" 1978 stone house that seems to be slowly falling apart. I keep telling myself I should just be happy that Corey still has a job. Which I truly am, but I don't want to get too positive too quick here. I really should have finished my BA, but I keep stopping because I really hate going to school and trying to balance the kids and everything else. So I guess now that I am turning 30, I feel like I have not accomplished hardly anything to look back on.

I did plan on keeping the kids busy this summer. I bought pool passes and I also got a zoo membership so we could keep out of the house. Well you know me and I have my scheduled days all set. Of course today was our zoo day and I look out this morning to find this staring at me...


Oh the rain, which we haven't had in a week or so, but still to rain on my zoo day. How dare you Mother Nature. So how are we spending this gloomy morning...

Lexie is curled up in my unmade bed and watching cartoons. She looks more like a little burrito instead of a little girl...(oh and thank you Lexie for getting lost yesterday and sending me into a fright. I thought I might have to call the police, but thank goodness she finally showed up.)

Hailey is off to a good start with her morning cry/poop. yes they go hand in hand it seems. But after she gets it over with she is happy usually for the rest of the day.

And the good old boys doing what they do best...playing Xbox on dad's big TV. I guess the apple really doesn't fall too far from the tree in this instance.

Ok, now I feel better. Let's hope that on Friday it will be nice so we can go out and do something fun.....or even tomorrow would be nice for a pool day.