In The Shadow of Gotham

 

I have been avoiding the library lately....I admit I haven't walked through the doors since I was pregnant with Danni.  I just always assume that I won't have time to read with how demanding she is.  But on the off chance she would take a nap and I would get some quiet time I decided to get back into reading.  Plus a librarian in our ward decided to start a book club that I am pretty excited about.  So it got my book worm wiggling with reading excitement.  Some times I just go to the library and walk up and down the aisle till I find a book that looks interesting.  Doing this I have either found a great book or a big disappointment.  This time I did really well.  I picked up this book titled "In The Shadow of Gotham".  It was written by Stefanie Pintoff and it is a murder mystery.  Normally I don't go for these, I usually go for the dramas.  It is about a detective in New York in 1905 who is working to solve a case.  I like it because it is a historical fiction which is my favorite time and also the mysteries are solved more in the old deduction way.  I like to think it is comparable to the Sherlock Holms series.

 

It was a good read.  Really well written and I read it in just 2 days which is really good considering I could only read a couple of hours a day.  And the best part is I couldn't figure out who the culprit was until the very end.  It kept me on my toes.  I would recommend this to really anyone who wants a quick read that is really interesting.



Down and Out

Sitting in bed two nights ago I didn't even realize how down I was until Corey asked if I was ok.  He really is such a great loving husband and can tell sooner than I realize that I am getting down in the dumps again.  It was a much needed relief to have it out in the open that I was going down road of blues as I like to call it.  Now I am usually not one who suffers from any sort of depression.  I never even thought about it.  But after having Danni something happened probably with my hormones and the fact that my life has changed so dramatically that I notice myself getting blue more often then not.  On top of that is my own problem with trying to be a certain way physically that no one else cares about but myself it seems.  I am guessing that is why I haven't been up to blogging, haven't really been up to much of anything.  So I know, why am I blogging about it?

For me it feels better to talk about it and since Douglas is so small and I really don't have too many good friends here like I did in my other places this is my place to vent.  I can't even say how much I miss my dear friends Jenn and Christy.  I was always with one of them and I miss that so much.  The hardest thing is the fact that Danni is really time consuming.  She whines most of the day and has to constantly be in motion.  It exhausts me by the end of the day.  Some days I just feel like bursting out in tears because I have no time of my own.  And Corey gets frustrated with her because she cries a lot so he will only hold her for a small bit when he gets home and then hands her back.  Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change having her for the world, but I miss having just me time.  She doesn't even nap that well either which gives me even less time.  Combine all this with 4 kids all home all day in summer and you have one ticking time bomb.  I try to stay upbeat but there are days where it is just too much effort.  And running which gives me more energy and really makes me feel better has become harder because Corey always has to leave early it seems so I have to get up at 4am to get my run in before Danni wakes up.

The only comfort I get is when I went grocery shopping yesterday and had kids all over the little old lady looked at me and just said, "cheer up, this wont' last forever.  Soon they will grow up and you will miss this moment.  Trust me."  So I will just plug along trying to be brave for my kids and trying not to get frustrated or angry with them when it is all just my internal dialogue causing the problem.  School should help........

Danni 5 Months Old

 

 

Yes I know what everyone is thinking...could Danni possibly be 5 months old already?  These past 5 months have just flown by and I sit sometimes and stare at Danni and think she is just growing up on me way too fast.  I do miss the newborn snugly stage but I will gladly give that up for sleeping through the night.  Let's see what little miss Danni is up to these days.....

 

Danni has discovered how to roll over.  She can roll both ways which makes for movement which makes for I have to pick up constantly.  She never stays on her back too long before she flips right over.  She used to hate tummy time but after learning to turn she will play for a little while with toys on her tummy.  I got a couple of sequence shots of her roll...

 

Pretty impressive right?  Once she learned this she can also inch worm her way forward to get to things.  If a toy is out of reach she will inch her cute little butt in the air and scooter forward.  Mobile already so let's hope she doesn't pick up crawling too fast.

I have been working on sitting but she hates it.  I mean really hates it.  She want to get down on her belly so she can move.  When I do get her in sitting position she just folds right in half and tries to flop forward.  I have nightmares that she will never just sit and play.  This girl is constantly moving.  Even when she is sleeping I go check and she is moving all over her crib while asleep.  I did put the boppy pillow around her and took some pictures...

It starts out ok....

 Then just a couple of minutes pass before we hit this stage....

 And the final act...yep every time.

 

Danni has already shown a love of food.  She loves her baba and all I have to do is say it and she gets really excited.  She is already drinking a full bottle per feeding.  And when we eat she is mesmerized by our food.  She stares at the food and then as it comes to your mouth she will look up and just stare.  Plus she is always trying to grab my food.  My Dr. thought she would be find starting some baby food.  So I started with bananas like my Dr. said and she loves them.  She will polish a whole container on her own.  And she is my cleanest eater.  I don't even have to use a bib most of the time because all the food that goes in stays in.  I have also tried carrots which she didn't like the first time but the second time she ate the whole thing as well.  I am so happy to have a good eating baby.  That would explain all the fat rolls she has acquired.

 

 You have to admit that is a pretty cute baby.....you can tell she is an Esquibel.