Ah ha moment

Don't you love it when you are reading or thinking and you realize something that has been said to you numerous times? My husband always points out my aw ha moments and says "I have been saying that." I finally got my ah ha moment today and I was in desperate need of it. I think being a woman is enough pressure in itself. You are expected to look a certain way and act a certain way for you to be accepted. Even in my church where things like this shouldn't matter, it is the one point most women decide to hang over and talk about over and over again. I am constantly feeling the pressure to look that awesome fabulous and to be more attractive than I was before my last baby. Not that taking care of your body and eating right are the wrong way to go, I am not saying that. But the obsession over our bodies is getting just down right annoying if you ask me.

So what am I going to do about it? Well I am not going to obsess about everything I eat. I am going to try and eat healthy and make good choices. Not because I want to squeeze in my size four pants, but because it will make my body strong. I will not over exercise and feel like I need to show off to my friends saying, "Oh I went to the gym four times today and ran 8 miles." But I will continue to do the things I love and be active to keep my heart healthy. I think we need to realize that there is more to us than our pants size and how we look on the outside. I have more work to do on the inside then the outside. But it seems no one obsesses about that.

I also read the article in last months Ensign talking about dressing morally. I have to admit some of my bathing suits could be considered risque, and I have put on a bikini a few times. But after reading this article, which was directed not only to the youth, but the women of the church, it made me realize I need to take a closer look at how I dress and what I want to present to people. And more importantly what I want my little girls to think about me and how I dress. I want them to emulate me and dress appropriately. So I did go through my dresser and revamped. Not that I am going to wear cardigans and full length skirts for the rest of my life. As my sister in law Sally has shown me, you can dress in fashion and still dress to our morals.

Please don't think I am aiming this post to anyone in particular, this is just how I was feeling about myself and my surroundings. Now I hope to work on more important things like faith, patience and making sure my children know how important the gospel is in our lives and the role it should play.